My dearest Luca and Sienna,
I was a selfish person before I met you. I didn’t think I was capable of ever loving anyone or anything more than I loved myself, I had always put myself first. But then I had the two of you. And everything changed.
Let me tell you, if love is blind, then a mother’s love is paraplegic. It knows no bounds. It is unfazed by appearances, seasons, opportunities. It is eternal. Innate. Painful. Protective. It knows no laws of the universe. It will make you go deeper than you ever thought you could possibly go and make you braver than you could ever have imagined. It is merciful and merciless all at the same time. It is irrational and overbearing. It is selfless and enormously caring.
I didn’t know I was capable of shedding my selfish skin, I didn’t understand what it meant to truly put someone else first. To put my dreams on hold, and give my body and soul to you. It is a form of sweet surrender. Truly a miracle, not just of what I was physically able to do, but of the transformation, when suddenly the big things that used to matter so much to me overnight become so trivial, and the days become longer, while the years become shorter.
This is my first Mother’s Day as a mother to the two of you. I’m overwhelmed. I’m tired. I’m ecstatic. I look at the both of you and I still need a moment to take it in. To pinch myself. Me? A mother of two? How did this happen? I’m terrified. I’m euphoric.
You both need me. Not just to grow, but to thrive. I have two pairs of innocent eyes that now look at me like I’m the most important person in the world. And right now I am your world. What a terrifying responsibility. What a great honor. I get to take you both by your little hands and lead the way. And though I’m not perfect here are some promises I will make to you:
I promise to always be there for you, regardless of how busy life may get
I promise to always hold you close to my heart, especially when it hurts
I promise to keep you safe, no matter how scary it might seem
I promise to keep your hand in mine until you’re ready to let go
I promise to always support you, no matter what path you chose
I promise to teach you right from wrong, and then let you decide
I promise to always warn you, even if you’ve heard it so many times.
I promise to always help you, even when you think you don’t need it
I promise to always appreciate you, no matter how much you misbehaved
I promise to help you achieve your dreams, as you have made mine
I promise to always be grateful that God made me your mother.